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December 25th, 2015

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December 6th, 2013

They're promising us snow!

SHIELD Christmas party
Finally! We seem to be in a small section of US not currently having winter weather events. It's cold as fuck, sure. And maybe I don't need snow to get in the Christmas spirit but it sure as helps.

So yes, they (as in the National Weather Service) are saying my neck of the woods will be seeing snow on Sunday through Sunday night. At least three inches.

They better be right! I am vibrating with anticipation. Because I have Monday stay-at-home plans that involve making gingerbread cookies and watching Christmas movies, and if there's a goodly amount of snow on the ground, it'll make the day that much better.

November 24th, 2013

This weekend at the library

overworked and all that
For the first time a guy told me he loved my Hawkeye necklace. Until this point, the only people who said that were teenage girls and women my age or younger. *belatedly fistbumps dude*

The necklace also grabbed the attention of a young boy who was prattling at me about how much he loves Minecraft."You would like Minecraft! It has bows and arrows and I see you like bows and arrows!" He told me in one rushed breath.

"Weeell, I like Hawkeye," I clarified.

"In Minecraft here's a Hawkeye skin! And when you play as Hawkeye your bow and arrow changes so it looks like Hawkeye's in the movie! And you get the crosshairs!"

And at this point I was a bit "OMG you're adorable and nerdy" but also "OMG we close in ten minutes, get out of here, kid!"

And today, of course it being a Sunday, the public elevator decided to stop working. So, spent my first hour or so getting the signage put up for the elevator being out of order as well as the directions to the staff elevator. Then there was trying to find and put up caution tape because even though the elevator wasn't moving, the doors would still occasionally open at the Ground Floor and I didn't want anyone by-passing the signs and still trying to get it.

Ran into a regular (some days he's a good regular, some days it can be trying esp when his girlfriend and their screaming babies are with him), who informed me that he was actually having some problems with his girlfriend and they were probably going to split up soon. "Well, that's too bad," I said sincerely.

"Yeah..." He agreed. "But if you're available, I'm free now!"

"AHAHAhAHA GTFO OUT RIGHT NOW!" I didn't say, but instead came out more as "Eh heh heh... I'll...keep that in mind?"

I mean, it wasn't the creepiest come-on (and I really can't say if it was genuine y'know?) I had at work. At least it was someone I was actually familiar with from previous interactions and not a stranger, and the comment wasn't grossly inappropriate. But still, dude, no. Move along.

And unfortunately, I'm not even looking forward to my day off tomorrow because I have stuff to do. Stupid adulthood. Bleagh, mebbe I'll put-off getting my oil changed another week. And apparently mother already did some vacuuming today so that lessens my load! It's also suppose to snow tomorrow so I think go to gym (Monday and Wednesday at the last days they're open ever, then they'll be closed :(), go to grocery store, then just stay home and watch.Robin of Sherwood!

November 23rd, 2013

managed to work a full Saturday! This is something I only manged once before in the past three months.

But look! No anxiety attacks, no nausea/dry-heaving, no crying!

Well, I think there's was about forty minutes where I was suddenly a bit iffy. But managed to get over it.

We were super busy. And all the computers were full for most of the day: Kids, Teen, adult, all the computers.

But as I realized that the day was almost over and I completely survived it, I felt so damn proud of myself that not even teens could ruin my mood. Then a patron with her kids came and gave staff treat bags with chocolates with a little note about "random acts of kindness" So yeah that's pretty fucking awesome, too!

Now I am home to fallumph and try not to eat all the chocolates at once. We'll see....

November 20th, 2013

Urge to Commit Arson Rising

my aaaaangst

Aargh, what a weird and stressful day at work, compounded by me being in immense (menstrual) pain. Just agh so many people and things needing to be set on fire.

And my day hasn't gotten better, because one of the things I was looking forward to turned has now left me filled with RAGE. That being last night's episode of Person of Interest. You were my show. You were my show that never did anything that pissed me off. But boy, when you decided to, you did it big. And I don't even just mean the very end. There were several moments leaving pretty bad tastes in my mouth.

I don't even know what to do with myself. I need to watch something that will make me happy. Maybe Bourne Legacy. Hot dude. Shit gettin' blown up. Bad guys dying. Yeah, that sounds good.

And I look forward to tomorrow. Have the day off. Gonna go bet me some gingerbread latte, but a comic or two, and stay home rest of the day. Maybe working on fic, maybe start my Robin of Sherwood rewatch.

November 12th, 2013


overworked and all that
On the one hand I am immensely impressed that my 16 year old cat is still amazing at catching mice

On the other hand, given the amount of mice she's been catching lately, we probably officially have a mouse "problem."

Or possibly not... Anymore. 

November 11th, 2013

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overworked and all that
I think the antibiotic has done some sightly weird shit to my tongue.

Gonna guy buy yogurt tomorrow. See if that helps.

October 24th, 2013

Lady Plumbing

overworked and all that
Saw the doctor today to express some concerns I've been having about my inner workings.

She's all "It's hormones."


"Probably hormones. This happens."


"Do you want another pap?"

"...yes please."

Internet self-diagnosing is a terrible, terrible tool when you're already anxiety prone, and your anxiety is worse because you're on your period.

October 16th, 2013

uuuuuuugh nooooooo cooooold.

Called off work, stayed home and downed hot liquids, Emergen-C, kept snacking because the body need fuel, but omg do I hate eating constantly. It feels like a bad habit. And despite the rest and hydration and vitaminizing, I feel worse as the day wears on. I tried napping, but uuugh my nose is so stuffy it just wasn't happening.

I even tried taking the time off work to write fic, and yeah not happening either. It's suppose to be a cheer-up fic for a friend and a bit for myself. A bit of h/c y'know? Where character A is having a bad week but love-interest character B helps make A feel better with fluff and ridiculousness. But found myself adding having a cold as to part of the character's bad week and started feeling bad for making him go through what I'm going through and had to stop for now.

Cannot wait until it's late enough for me to take some Nyquil and fall into oblivion.

October 14th, 2013

urrgle, I better not be sick

overworked and all that
First figured that my scratchy throat was due to mother turning on the heating this morning, and therefore making the house dryer.

But the scratchiness has been pervasive ALL DAY! Booooo

Am having my second cup of tea with honey for the day right now, and will continue to down as much water as possible. C'mon immune system! I just gave you a flu vaccine* last week! Don't fail me now!

*Yes, I know flu vaccine does not protect against common cold which this could be and all. I just feel like since I made an active effort for my own wellness, my body could respect that and pay me back in kind.

October 11th, 2013

How About Some Good News

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Yes, indeed there is other good news. All the shenanigans with my bank account are at an end! Today, my dispute went through, and the money deposited back into my account! And soon I shall received my new debit card at last in the mail!

Am so happy this is all done. And once I use up what I put on this prepaid travel card (my debit substitute that's been okay to use, but really not as convenient at all), I can be done with that, too.

In fact, I'm doing pretty well money-wise. I can send a few checks out I need to before the end of the month for actual important adult things; and still have money left over to not feel bad about buying movies and video games! score!

October 4th, 2013

Today at work was excessively helpful to patrons due to my extensive knowledge on these three subjects:

  1. Edgar Allen Poe

  2. Charles Dickens

  3. Doctor Who

And I think being able to talk about three of my favorite things (and to get paid for it!) just totally left me pumped. I'm feeling really good an energetic. No desire for post-work fallumphing.

Also managed to answer a computer question for an older patron (who was not using one of our computers) who admitted that he wasn't even sure how to accurately put into words what he was actually trying to ask. It took us a little bit, because it can be hard for someone who knows not much about computers (and terminology) and a person who thinks about computers only on proper terminology levels to communicate. It's a hurdle I frequently encounter and have difficulty over-coming. Fortunately, we were patient enough with each other that I hope we finally got the solution he wanted. In that he needed to know how to rename a file (and/or how to do a "save as" after editing a file and wanting to update the file name).

It really felt no different than yesterday when I had a mostly-successful phone conversation in Spanish (and even being mostly-successful made me feel good!).

Another notable accomplishment is that my 16 year old bby kitty caught a mouse! Such a spry senior citizen. In the process she did knock over her entire water bowl, leaving me to clean that mess up. She didn't even stay in the basement to finish her kill. I finally found her in mother's room, chomping the thing down. Bonus, she has not thrown it up (yet).

October 1st, 2013

Well, that didn't last long

morning bleargh
So, despite my AMAZING feel-good day yesterday, when it was time for bed... *sigh*

It was the same situation from Friday/Saturday.  Like, exactly. At least I was able to sleep-in and not have to work until later this evening.

Think I will take some friendly advice and see if taking tryptophan will help me. The only place I know that actually carries some is a bit out of my way, but it'll be worth it if it means more consistent sleeping.

September 30th, 2013

Wow. Just a good day and I'm feeling good.

Which is fantastic after having to work all weekend. And the whole lack of sleep Saturday. Then Sunday I woke-up with a fucking awful headache that made my entire face hurt. And even once the pain went down, it still kinda pulsed and made me just kinda wonky.

Buuuuut. Got good sleep last night. Day off, so slept in. The weather was beautiful and comfortably under 70 degrees (autumn yaaaay!). Wearing my new Re-Animator t-shirt that I LOVE SO MUCH! I've never been so happy in any particular t-shirt! It's just so exciting to finally have officially-licensed Re-Animator stuff, and it looks awesome, and I look awesome in it. And it's comfy!

Did my weekly house cleaning and went to the grocery store as my Responsible Adult Things of the day. Spent the rest of it downing pumpkin spice coffee, candy corn, candy pumpkins and having fangirl freak-outs over a variety of things over on tumblr (Jeffrey Combs things, Sean Pertwee in Elementary, Rumpelstiltskin in his Dark One leathers but with normal skin!) and listening to fun music and dacing in my chair.

It'd be nice if I could feel like this everyday.

And that everyone else could, too. Not the specifics, but just the feeling of goodness.

September 28th, 2013

Dammit dammit dammit.

Probably. Was probably so concerned about getting enough sleep my brain and body just didn't let me. Even after taking a couple night time pain relief pills (both necessary, neither really working). And now here I am up early and facing a full day of work.

Remember what happened last time I tried facing a Saturday with little sleep? That's when all the badness started for me. And that was only facing half a day (ending up working only two hours). Now, I don't feel as ill as I did then, but I'm still not keen on eating or drinking coffee right now, And that's no good.

And both the time and now I am on my period which does affect sleep patterns. But for not even those drugs to work? I must have really been obsessing too much over getting enough sleep that I just ended-up not sleeping. Stupid, stupid brain.

Wish me luck.

September 25th, 2013

Went into work an hour early to attend a Webinar on the Affordable Health Care Act (AKA Obamacare) for knowledge purposes because people will definitely be looking at the library for information and our computers to apply. I am both excited and terrified of this. Excited, because it may help me and my lack of Health Care, excited for all the people it will help, and it being an absolute sign of Obama making good on at least a couple of his promises.

Terrified, because OMG so many people who will be expecting us to be experts on it, like they assume we're tax experts. And probably expecting us to do the application for them because they'll probably "hear" from "someone" or "somewhere" that they if they want to apply "just come to the library." Also, will probably have to deal with assholes talking anti-AHCA if they overhear staff and patrons trying to be helpful and figure things out.

I hadn't been at work since last Friday afternoon, and it was a half-hour into my shift that I saw an e-mail from my supervisor (sent yesterday) asking if it was okay for my performance review to be done today. So that I was a little last-minute and unexpected. But it was cool. Once again I am awesome and nothing but glowing praise for yours truly. *smiles. teeth sparkle with a "ding"*

It was unfortunately also one of those days where I spent more time helping people at the photocopiers than anything else. And that can bum me out. I don't mind helping people at the photocopiers if it's only once or twice and interspersed with helping people find books. But when it's more tech help than book/movie help in a day I get a little annoyed.

September 24th, 2013

It's Tonight!!!

overworked and all that

Here's hoping it's as good as I am hoping. Nothing could ever burn as badly as certain other shows I was greatly anticipating before they aired, so there's at least that. And why am I still finding people on the tag going "Whoaaa...wait. This is set after the Avengers and Coulson is alive!?!?!?" What rock have you been under for half a year? Or even a couple months. The advertising has not been secretive about this.

It's such a weird feeling though, for a favorite minor character to suddenly become a main character. I don't want to go hipster on it. But it's like loving minor characters is one of my things how to a cope with him being the star?

Probably quite well. Coulson every week on my TV, even if I have to DVR it because I have to WORK ON TUESDAY NIGHTS AAAARGH (why yes, I specifically took the night off so I could watch my premieres).

Speaking of premieres, season 3 of Person of Interest starts! LOVE this show. It just gets better, and here's looking forward to another year of awesome characters, twisty plots, shady-ass heroes being shady and so many kneecaps shot-out.

Speaking of firsts of the year, tonight is the first chili dinner of the season, made lovingly by me. So, will have that dinner during SHIELD and for dessert (to be had during PoI) cookies! What kind of cookies? Why Reese's brand peanut butter and chocolate chunk! U C Wot I did thar? Hur hur.

September 17th, 2013

Health and Fitness

overworked and all that
Seeing as I am now on day 4 of feeling perfectly fine and totally normal, went back to the gym for the first time in two weeks.

Only to discover that they're closing.

Not until the end of November, but ergh.

One one hand, I have considered off and on cancelling my membership. I have lost the weight I wanted to lose, and maybe I can manage to maintain it by exercising at home. The other hand is that I haven't cancelled yet because I had been concerned that I would not be able to maintain properly if left to my own devices.

Back to the first hand: will have $34 extra bucks in my pocket every month now. Not that that's a huge amount, but still something.

Well, I've got a couple months yet to utilize my current place. Maybe after it closes we'll see how well I do at home as to whether or not I need need some place to actually go to have proper motivation to exercise.

Fall TV talk

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Aaaall right. Since yesterday seemed to be the official start of the new TV season, let's talk shooooooows!

So, last night my first venture into the new  season was with the new series Sleepy Hollow. A show my only interest being possibly entertaining horror show. Well, the pilot delivered on that. So, will see if it continues to be interesting and does a good job with the horror/supernatural/mystery elements.

And now we're only ONE WEEK away from the premiere of Agents of SHIELD! *heavy breathing* Let's hope it lives up to all the hype. Because even if it doesn't, but I still like it/think it's a good show, there's the risk of everyone else being "Well that wasn't as awesome as I was expecting so I'll not watch it" and then ratings drop and... I'm overthinking something that could possibly not happen. At the same time, I've always appreciated a show that starts out decently and has room to grow. Too often we're burned by shows that start out AMAZING and by season 2 we're already a bit "erhhmmm." This show being quality and successful means so much to me, you don't understand. *deep breaths*

That same night, sees the season premiere of Person of Interest. A show that only keeps growing in quality and happily. viewing numbers. And now with more female main characters (the assholes in fandom can shove it)! I for one at least try to hold-off judgement of new directions and cast members until I actually see how it's played-out. I was originally put-off by "We're adding a dog!" because that seemed silly. But Bear quickly won me over, because the show handled it better than I could've imagined.

Thursday that week is the return of Elementary. Hnnnng, *grabby hands* I'm sure it'll be just as quality as last season. Unless somehow Lucy Liu and Jonny Lee Miller's chemistry somehow managed to die in the interim. And since that is unlikely, totally looking forward to more!

Then there's Once Upon a Time. A show that fell into Lost problems (unsurprisingly. since it's the same writers) of an amazing first season and a rambling second season. But as with Lost I am willing to willing to stick with it in hopes of lessons from previous season's mistakes being learned (although I am not holding my breath).

A causality of my viewing this year will be NCIS. I've got too much to put on my DVR (uuurgh why do i have to work on the night AoS and PoI are OOOON!?!?!?!), and I'm just not as invested in that show as I am in the others. Will be easy to walk away.

As for another new show I'm thinking of giving a try, there's Almost Human, but since that doesn't start till November will leave of thinking too much about it for now. 

September 14th, 2013

Oh it's cold!

overworked and all that
I mean, obviously not winter cold so what the shit am I complaining about?

But is the first morning since the temp drop I'm up early and Ohhhhhh my God. Actual shivering getting into shower.

Hopefully body will adjust soon to these wonderful Fall-like temperatures so I do not appear too much of a wuss.
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